Alec Badwin, 63, has emotionally told his fans and friends that “not a day goes by” that he doesn’t think about the tragedy of Rust, which killed cinematographer Halyna Hutchins in October while he wished them a Merry Christmas.
Alec Badwin admitted he felt “very embarrassed” in a peculiar Christmas message thanking his supporters around the world.
The actor accidentally shot and killed cinematographer Halyna Hutchins when a prop gun he was holding exploded while filming Rust in New Mexico.
The 63-year-old previously told an ABC reporter that he cocked the gun that killed the 42-year-old, but said he “didn’t pull the trigger”.
He has now shared a moving video thanking his friends, family and fans for their support.
The Hollywood star says ‘not a day goes by’ that he doesn’t think about what happened on the set of the film and the impact of the October 21 accident.
It comes as a search warrant has been issued for his phone as part of the investigation into the cinema worker’s death.
Baldwin said he was “just trying to move on with my life” and felt “lucky” to be home with his family for Christmas.
In a video posted to his Instagram account, he said he looked forward to “some aspects” of the incident being behind him.
In a lengthy message, he said: “I wanted to take a moment to say thank you to all those people who have sent me such kind words and best wishes and strength and hope and prayers and so on.
“So many good feelings from so many people, I have received hundreds of emails from friends, family, colleagues and people… to send me strength and good wishes. I am very grateful.”
“I can’t wait for some aspects of this to be behind me, of course for everyone involved in this it will never be behind us because someone died so tragically.
“I never lose sight of that, not a day goes by that I don’t think about it.”
The movie star said being with his wife and children was “the only thing that matters to me”.
He continued: “I’m just trying to move on with my life and trying to get through a tough time, a really tough time.
“I feel very uncomfortable, getting through this has been very difficult and I want to say happy holidays – whatever holiday you are celebrating.
“I hope you are as lucky as I am in one department and that is to be home with your family.
“I have nothing clever or original to say, just thank you to those people who sent me their well wishes.”
Signing off, the former Friends star added, “Be safe, wear a mask, get the reminder and don’t let Santa come down the chimney without a mask.”